Thank you everyone who donated money, you have given me a frightening amount of it. But no more donations were coming in, and having to think about it being up there for the whole world to see.
I am still at the house that took me in, and I am still negotiating to get my stuff back. Communicating with them has become slightly easier. I hope that tomorrow it becomes easier still.
I thought I was recovering, emotionally, but the past 2 nights have been extremely rough. Heartbreak is a feeling that can't be explained or described. You can't even imagine it until you go through it.
It is not sadness. It isn't even a conventional fear. It's an overwhelming, debilitating sensation of impending doom.