I own two skateboards. I bought a Superior deck that quickly became a prop for Apogee, and a Santa Cruz drop-through that I’d intended to use for grocery runs. The last time I skated was in October 2019, and I bailed so badly that I was still wearing gauze under my fursuit at MFF that year. After the pandemic started, I decided it’d be best to avoid any activity that might land me in a hospital.
These days I have the e-bike, and both boards are collecting dust.
this makes me think about how a couple times in the last 12 months i picked up a replacement for A Hobby Thing Lost In The Incident, something I considered to be a defining thing that I did, only to realize i actually no longer gave a shit about it, and now it collects dust.
i have something i cared deeply about that i managed to keep with me couchsurfing across two countries and when i got a space of my own i turned it on and just, did not care
i'm at peace with this. maybe it's a relief to have one less thing to devote my attention to. but i do wonder once my new home is complete and no longer my full time project, what will I do with my life?
also, seeing Apogee's goofy ass suit face grin again makes me really happy. what a good dog