I've been carrying a little notebook with me and writing down things that I'm feeling or noticing. Like I'm figuring out what the "emotional baseline" of different people are, the things they like, and dislike. Aether, for example, likes to be tall, and feels very tall. My roommate is a couple inches shorter than the body, but it's normally a gap I'm not aware of., but when Aether is fronting, I feel MUCH taller than them. Like I'm looking straight down at them. It's an odd feeling!
This morning's mystery feeling that I wrote down is that I feel shorter and "flat footed." Like my feet are very connected to the ground, but through the ground, so that I am actually shorter than the body is. Who is this short person???? Karu feels "smaller" than the body, but they are aware of the body's actual size, so the body feels wrong/too big. But this is a more "absolute" shorter-ness. I still have a lot to figure out.
-bird(?)
