AE-et-al

πŸ‰πŸ‰πŸ¦πŸ‰πŸ”πŸ¦ŠπŸ¦ŠπŸ”πŸ‰πŸ‰ ++

My brain is the writer's room for the worst show on television, and no one is taking any notes


Aelita β˜† Aether β˜† bird β˜† Glory β˜† Halara β˜† Izzabelle β˜† Karu β˜† Shun β˜† Silver β˜† Sunny β˜† and more!


You can use pretty much any pronouns for us collectively. Pinned post has additional info/specific pronouns per person.

Β 



I got my second tattoo yesterday and I love it! I was in the chair for 2 hours, the last one was about 1 hour, and the pain was worse sometimes. I was all by myself, handling the pain and doing meditative things to deal with it. I wasn't really thinking about ANYTHING, besides Ink Master, and how intense it must be to be someone whose never gotten a tattoo before to sit for a 6 hour one. On tv. Or that poor girl that was getting 4 tattoos at once.

No one else really cares what I do with the body. I'm transgender and have gotten surgeries, and have other body mods, and no one has ever said "no don't do that!" This was definitely something I thought about when I figured out I was a system and was really worried about it. And, still, I never got any indication that people care or are upset with what I've done. Most of them being non-human is probably part of it, as is the understanding that they are "parts" of me and exist for "my" benefit. I still feel bad thinking like that, that they're not their own individual people, but that's what it feels like for my situation. If that isn't for you, that's fine! You're just as valid, we just have different experiences.

Aether wrote most of a post on this forum I'm on today. He...got very intense. And I "came to" at the end of it and realized what happened, so I went over it and edited it, to make it a less mean and more coherent. And then a mod DMs me and tells me they really appreciated my post and that it was well written. Haha, oops! OP replied and, once again, Aether and I co-wrote a reply. And he's still co-con, which I noticed when I talked to my roommate. I got that "haha you are so SHORT I am so TALL" from him whenever he's co-con. But he's a dragon! He's big!

I'm sure people would like to talk to him specifically, and I think it would be cool to let him post whatever so I can learn more about him...but it's not at the point where I can pass him the controller whenever I like. He has to be triggered and then he'll take over without my realizing it until I come back. He likes getting into internet fights, and causing problems, and playing pranks, and having hot opinions. So you can see why triggering him might not be the best idea. He also takes over to protect me, which happens when I panic and NEED to lie, or one of the lies I, bird, have made gets questioned. You can see why he's pretty much Kokichi Danganronpa (but not in a fictive way, in a kinnie way).

Funny I mention that, the tattoo I got is a kinnie one, actually. Because I am So Normal about that game. But it's a reminder that I need to face the truth, whatever it might be, however uncomfortable or unfortunate it is. It's the right thing to do, and, more importantly, it's the kindest thing to do for others. Yes, there might need to be SOME lying involved to get there, to keep myself safe in the moment, or to allow the truth to be revealed otherwise. But lying is not the end-goal. I can't hide behind lies forever. There's been a lot of lies that I've had to tell, both to myself and others, because I was scared and didn't know how else to protect myself, but every time I've faced the truth, it always ends up for the better. My life improves and I feel more whole and authentically me.

And Aether would like to add how this also neatly slots into him and what he does for me, which is never give me the answer I want, but the leads I need to figure it out on my own, because it won't really be a good lesson if someone just hands me the answers. I need to go through that ordeal myself. Even if that means he has to play the bad guy. And also how Aelita is always standing right behind him, glaring, making sure he won't take things too far, Or Else. She helps me, too, and it's not that she's bad with words, but more like she communicates better without them. And how the situation of gestures to everything has forced her into the role of being a babysitter. Which she does, but that's not who she actually is. But someone has to do it.


You must log in to comment.