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My brain is the writer's room for the worst show on television, and no one is taking any notes


Aelita β˜† Aether β˜† bird β˜† Glory β˜† Halara β˜† Izzabelle β˜† Karu β˜† Shun β˜† Silver β˜† Sunny β˜† and more!


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Today has also been pretty soupy, too. I'm not anxious but I am kinda just. Not All Here. I don't know who is at the front, so I've just...not been logging switches. I can't tell when they're happening, if at all. But it is very quiet. So I'm here by myself.

Emotional baseline is very...nothing. This doesn't "feel" like anyone (so not Aether, Aelita, Karu, or Fuwa), and "I" don't feel like "myself," so maybe it's not bird? But also "I" have been doing the whole "maybe I am faking it" thoughts. It's normal for your sets of emotions and likes/dislikes to change sometimes, right? Or at least that's a normal thing with...depression, maybe? I don't think I have SAD but sometimes I don't like it when it's grey and rainy like this (which is what winters are like where I live). I know Aether doesn't like this kind of weather, so he doesn't show up when it's cold.

But also that means that I can't write, or edit, since "I" do not have the ability to really concentrate or anything. Everything I write feels Bad, like things in chat, or posts like this. I have no appetite, and other things that are connected with being depressed, but without that crushing weight. It's like depression but the thing on top of me is hollow or made of foam. Like I feel I can break through it at any time, but I just...don't. There's clearly a mental something going on, but isn't there always? Isn't all of this "all in my head"?

Hopefully it will very clearly be bird fronting when I wake up tomorrow. There's Adult Stuff that needs to be done, and I said I was going to be social tomorrow, and I already paid for the thing so...I should probably go and do that.

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