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My brain is the writer's room for the worst show on television, and no one is taking any notes


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Today was.....urgh. My anxiety was still really bad, even after taking my meds, and I lost so much time disassociating. Part of it is my to do list...but another part is my writing.

You see, I'm in the process of looking for a literary agent for my manuscript. I have only gotten form rejections so far, and...idk who, but someone is panicking. That we're going to go through this whole process and we'll get no interest, and that, somehow, is a reflection on our worth as a writer. That we're actually Awful and everyone has been lying to us about liking my query or concept or voice or whatever.

I literally started this January 1, so it's been not even a week, and I'm already in this...just sense of awfulness. I keep going over my submission materials to make sure that there's no giant error that's sending me directly into the trash bin, but I can't find anything like that. Is my wordcount too high? I already cut 50k+ words, I know it's on the high end still, but it's still lower than what many people say is an auto-reject. But maybe it's still too high for some people. idk.

Your agent is your hypeperson, they go up to the editors of the big publishers and say this book is soooooo good you gotta buy it! So they need to love and believe in your work. And you've all read books that you didn't like, or regret paying for, even if other people love them. So I just need to find the ONE* agent that loves my work.

(and I say "one" because they need to be, you know, not a scammer or a bad fit or anything like that. But I'm doing what I can researching people and agencies before I submit to them)

idk, I never had it THIS bad when it came to my short stories being rejected, but that's probably because I haven't worked on them for literal years and already put myself into these mini-mental breakdowns over them.

I really need to go to bed so I can have the energy/clarity to do things tomorrow. 'cause right now staying up isn't doing me any good.


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