It feels weird that whenever I think of work now I'm in like a mode where like an animal knows something is dangerous and do not wanna go near it. Fight or flight? Forgot what this is anyways I really really am adverse to returning to my office since brain now things (and rightfully so) work is pure poison and will hurt me.
Bit sorry I'm infesting peoples timelines with this stuff its just, overwhelming trying to actually live for myself and break out of the poison that is instilled in you in these kinds of situations? I'm a mess mentally trying to just process everything and as much as I would like for them to fire me the sad truth is that if I apply for unemployment if I get fired they can claim something stupid and I get denied and I can't fight it. Guess this is all really contingent on what my doctor says on Thursday, but I really REALLY do not want to continue this job for the sake of my own health.
