I hate that my mind constantly alternates between "I wish more people listened to my music" and "if too many people are listening, I should disappear". I don't know what the exact amount of people I would want to listen to my music would be. I don't want to make a living off my music, because then it becomes a job.
I guess I just want to experience what it's like to be noticed by a bunch of people. That's one of the reasons I created Songs for Gamers/ANTHEMS. I was hoping that by writing music for 20-30 people at a time, I would make more friends, and there would be more interest in my music. And there was, kinda.
But most of the people I wrote music for have moved on to other sites, or who knows what happened to them. I've always been around in some form since maybe 2010 or so. I sometimes feel like I'm overstaying my welcome, but it probably hasn't come to that.
I'd just like more attention, not just to my music. I'm not afraid to admit I'm a bit of an attention-seeker, but the way I figure, is whenever someone types or says something, they're looking for some sort of attention, otherwise why would they type/say it?
