I really don't want to post anything after my previous post. A part of me wishes those were my last words, but they're not. I feel obligated to let people know I'm still alive, and have no plans on changing that. Although if I'm given a way out, who knows what I'll do.
As long as I'm still around, I'm trying to figure out what to do with my music going forward. I could keep doing the same music I've been doing, which would be the easy path. I could try to reinvent my sound, maybe improve it. I might just go back to old songs I like and rewrite them using my new sounds and abilities. We'll see.
I apologize if my words are hard/annoying to see. I'm not going to cover up who I am or what I feel. Bottom line: I want to die, and I've been looking forward to it for a very long time. I also want to see this life through to its natural end. Because while I can end it, I could be missing out on shit that might interest me and/or keep me around.
That doesn't rule out anything, though. If life gets too stressful, or I simply have nothing to live for, I have no problem cutting it short if it comes to that. I'll try to put in 2 weeks notice at the very least.
I'm locking comments on this post. There's nothing anyone can say or do to change my ways. Also obviously not using qtoid or cblogs tag. I only want people that still follow me to see this nonsense.
Take care.