Alphadeus

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Alphadeus
@Alphadeus

Anxiety

I really hate my anxiety. I just want to play ffxiv. But my anxiety prevents me from playing with other people. I don’t think it’s performance anxiety, I’m alright at the game.

I mostly relied on npcs to run dungeons, and only played with other people three times to get to the end of the main story. But there is content i want to do that requires 3-23 other players.

This has been an issue since before stormblood released. I’m so backed up on optional content. I hate it.

Edit: I should mention also that only one or two people i know are active in the game. We play at different times though.

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DrMel
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In the Full Party content I played in 2.0 and 3.0, I recall it being pretty easy to slip into the crowd without needing to really communicate, although it could still be intimidating if you're unsure of the "optimal" thing to do in your role. I would watch videos of the fights to get an overview first or I would simply write in chat "first time doing this content" and if someone was shitty, I would leave. They were either silent or they would be like "ok, here's what you need to do".

Maybe things have changed since then. I hope not.

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Alphadeus
@Alphadeus

I’ve mostly just seen hello and gg at the end. One time one person was surprised we beat the trial but it wasn’t a big deal.

I study the fights before i jump in. People don’t mind first timers because they get a tomestone bonus (and they’re probably good people lol).

All this time i have not been able to figure out what causes my anxiety. When i queued up for content, my hands get sweaty while waiting for the duty finder. I just don’t get it.

I even changed my character name so i would feel less attached, didn’t really help. It seems to be a me problem.

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