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Back when I was severely depressed a few years ago, I had this peculiar sensation which I called "The Void."

It was the strange feeling that the world that was outside of my perception simply didn't exist. Beyond the boundaries of my sight was simply... Void. I was alone in the universe.

This only happened when I was by myself, and so naturally, that was a state I tried to avoid.

At times, it really felt like I ceased to exist when there was no one observing me.


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we've had glimmers like that. feeling like a "pure observer" of the Universe means having no power over it, because in physical reality the observer always affects what they observe. so if you feel like you're seeing the whole Universe at once, like you have that...it's because you're next to nothing, unable to affect things in any way. uh, downer, sorry ~Chara

I feel that all the time. In the early hours of the morning when everyone else is asleep and it's just me in front of a screen I feel like the world outside doesn't exist. Sure I know there's people out there doing stuff but I only really see it through a screen. It's like looking into a window of another world where people are real and are interesting, rather than how I see it with other people being little more than moving statues not worthy of much thought. Maybe that's the result of being online too much.

The worst part is that for the longest time I thought not being observed was a good thing and I did everything I could to avoid the world.