Constantly second-guessing myself on my decisions and it's giving me panic attacks.
I mean, I hate my job obviously. I hate working in marketing and I hate dealing with clients, but there's some nice perks to it!
- Money (not as much as I'm worth, but still!)
- Reasonably chill co-workers and bosses
- Unlimited PTO (This one is really helpful for badbrain days)
- A workload that means I spend about half my days not doing very much at any given moment
And I'm pretty sure I won't get all of those things at whatever job I find after I finish all my degree stuff. I might get some (and possibly one or two better things, hopefully), but I won't get all of them. Which is scary for me.
I'm still probably gonna go through with it (likely giving my notice today!), but it's. Terrifying.