Sarah Ford

It's been frustrating how slow the games industry has been in abandoning Twitter. A lot of other scenes I follow such as indie musicians, artists, the animation industry etc. are slowly moving elsewhere, but games does not want to budge.

Example: I apply to a lot of opportunities for diverse individuals such as game jams, scholarships, and events. Many of them do all their open calls on Twitter. So if you're a marginalized person that's decided Twitter is an actively harmful place for people like you, you're shit out of luck.

When you fill out applications it's just as bad. The only social media they ask for is Twitter and maybe Linkedin. If you get any of these opportunities, your congrats will come in the form of a tweet. If you want to be bumped and promoted by this big organization you better have a Twitter account they can tag!

Like I don't know, if my org was centered around being inclusive or helping people with their careers, I wouldn't want to advertise on the nazi bitcoin site. I know I'm picking on organizations, but a lot of my connections can still only be reached through Twitter.

I feel like the era of sharing your opinions to further your career did a lot of damage. People/orgs/etc are aware they won't be able to repeat their followings elsewhere because other places don't prioritize having hot takes. But should your industry prioritize hot takes?

At some point people in the games industry are gonna have to reckon with the fact that they need to move on. You can only use the nazi bitcoin site for so long before you become complicit with nazis & bitcoin.

My desktop login timed out and I can't remember the password so I guess I can only use this site awkwardly on my phone now woo.

Anyways, here's my 2022 sketchbook dumps, there's not much to them because I've had really bad art block and anxiety this year, hoping to change that into 2023.

Random -

Golduck -

Charmander -

So the bird site is just, barely working for me now, I reply to people and the reply doesn't send, I tweet and it takes over a minute to appear and the (+) tweets are just, gone.

Mastodon feels too much like LinkedIn and I have nowhere else to scream so I guess the void can live here like some livejournal throwback.

What I was TRYING to tweet were my thoughts on tiktok, which I have been giving more time to lately.

I'm finding now that I've given the algorithm some pointers it's giving me what I expect from social media, but that also means it feels dangerous like...if I keep scrolling it will show me something new, right? Then it doesn't, and it's showing me less like...cringe ' this is how I do something this is how my husband does something lol' shitty humour so there's less to make me go 'nah' and switch off.

Its a good place to escape from my own thoughts and is scratching the itch now that twitter is completely fucking dead, but that's a bad thing if it means I'm sucked into it all evening. I coulda watched a movie in the time I spent lying here scrolling but I didn't, and that's in part because I was feeling sleepy while watching a movie earlier and didn't wanna waste a good one but also...ugh.

I feel like I need a lot of alone time to fix my brain but I also need someone to poke me every hour like ' hey ok stop doing what you're doing and do something else'. So I don't get stuck like this 🥲