Anschel

queer quaker commie cat

In addition to the blurb above, I'm a recovering mathematician, Jewish, and autistic as fuck--those didn't alliterate

Sometimes I write poems, mostly in English and Spanish

I feel weird putting my age in my bio but I am in fact a Grown Up if you were worried

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pervocracy
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'course, the flip side of problematic self-diagnosis is the game I sometimes feel obligated to play where I go into the doctor's office like

"doctor, doctor, I have these weird problems with my brain, almost like it's an... illness but mental? is there a word for that? anyway I'd say I've been having five or more of these problems on the majority of days in the past two weeks and they cause significant distress and impairment. you ever hear of anything like this?"

out of fear that if I even give a hint of knowing what I'm talking about it's just going to be "🙄 I see you've consulted with Dr. Google, try going outside more or whatever"

(probably I somewhat exaggerate this fear to myself due to aforementioned brainproblems--I've definitely overheard breakroom conversations about other patients that I wouldn't like to hear about myself, but not every doctor does this. I have had doctors who honestly surprised me with their willingness to believe me.)

anyway my point is that if you have any subject matter knowledge you're always going to self-diagnose or at least self-differential-diagnose internally, and most doctor visits aren't actually "Dr. House, whatever could it be???" mysteries to begin with, so the line between self-diagnosis and formal-diagnosis is not actually that rock solid. not when 90% of the questions on the formal diagnostic screen for depression are "do you feel depressed?"

I liked when I broke my toe. I mean I didn't like it, but I liked how I called my doctor and said "I broke my toe," they took an X-ray and there was a bone broken and they said "you broke your toe." It was very validating to not have to play the "doctor, what shape are bones supposed to be? as a non-physician I don't want to assume" game on that one.


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in reply to @pervocracy's post:

Yeah, it was actually kind of nice to be able to show up to the rheumatologist's office and go "Okay, you can tell I have a hypermobility disorder because you just did the Beighton test and I got a full 9/9. Please tell me what you think it is and, if it's not Ehlers-Danlos, why not." And she said "I think it's benign hypermobility, because you don't have the heart or skin issues that would indicate Marfan or Ehlers-Danlos. If you had Ehlers-Danlos, your top surgery scars would have atrophied during healing and would look like this instead of like normal scars, and if you had Marfan, it would have shown up on [earlier heart testing]."

I mean, not great to be officially dealing with benign hypermobility, which is "the one that doesn't cause problems or have support groups" even though it still hurts the same, but at least I was able to get a straight answer out of the doctor about why I had that and not something else.

LMAO i had to do that to get benzos for when i have to get labwork done. describing all the symptoms of a panic attack without saying the word panic attack or mentioning medicines that are known to address them. it worked ultimately but geez

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