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wiredaemon
@wiredaemon

A question dear to me: Are your beliefs about yourself your own?

I used to not believe I was a woman for a short period of time in my life. But I was made to believe that. That belief was not something I came up with. What followed was a long period of shame for invalidating what the outside believed about me. Shame for being me. So out of fear and shame I did not live accordingly.

my personal opinion:
Seek the self perception that does not originate from the self and rip it out wherever possible. Invalidate, replace and live the truth.


ant
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in reply to @wiredaemon's post:

I have spent so long Not Knowing myself, that it is the beliefs about myself held by others by which I define myself, and the influence my actions have on those beliefs the compass by which I set my course.

It is through careful selection regarding which others whose beliefs I put stock in, therefore, that I become a better self.

And so it is that I know HRT is working, that I am really trans, because while I did not consciously experience gender dysphoria before, and I do not perceive any significant mental changes from six months on HRT, others around me remark about how much more alive they see me acting in those months. How much happier.

To be clear, I do not disagree with the point you make here being a good one, only that it is not the only way, though it is definitely a more reliable one than mine.