I was planning to go to the card shop this weekend to play Commander but this huge COVID-19 wave is likely still going on. Then up next is flu season in the coming months and I plan on getting the flu shot and the COVID booster to handle both of those things but it feels like it’s gonna be ages before I even get to play a single game with the cards I bought, and I can’t help but feel like a fucking moron for trying all over again to become a social gamer type person when I should just recognize that I’m wasting my money and my time on it.
I’ve also snapped back into my bad cognitive loops about how I don’t know how to feel like a member of any of the online communities I’m on because all the videogames I play are none of the ones my friends play, I’m not into a lot of the anime that’s been going on recently, and I’m hundreds of chapters behind the manga that others are reading. I feel isolated and shitty and unable to actually connect with people.