My Saturday RED game’s fast approaching as well. That’s a good problem. My players are very excited. One tried handing me vtt assets and while that was a kind gesture, the zip folder spooked my anti malware software. I’m hoping to script something interesting if there’s a gameplay portion of session 0.

My Sunday RED game also had me having to outline and draft way too much material because the gm insisted he’d use elements from the 2020 lifepath. That game has been using up more spoons to manage than the one I’m GMing for reasons I find frustrating (not being willing to leverage or understand any of my background as an autistic person when it comes to the pathologising language wielded in the cyberpsychosis mechanics, so I spend a lot of time being infantilised like I don’t know what I’m talking about while waiting for them to catch up halfway to the things I said before). At this point the concept feels like something that should’ve been excised if people weren’t so blind to the harm they can cause with it.

Because of all this, I can’t get back on my gaming computer over the next four days to the extent I’d like. That sucks but it is what it is. As I get stressed from school, I tend to start channeling that through essaying, so I hope to have some more organized impressions of the text. My main thesis still stands: this is fucked up and not for good and thought-through reasons, but it is capable of a great deal of ambivalence that isn’t as ideologically null as the authors and fans make it out to be.

Swimming just a bit too close to that uncritical fan culture in my Sunday RED game has me wondering if I need to strengthen the polemic thrust, though some of that feeling is me being blessed to be in communities that aren’t like this. I forget that on the internet my neurodivergent perspective is not mainstream at all and I’m glad that communities like Action Button helped me in that forgetting