I had no intention of making a big farewell post, but then this rambling mess just started to appear.
I gotta say, the difference in leaving twitter and leaving cohost tells me so much about the connections I made in each place.
Leaving twitter, there were very few efforts from other people to stay in touch after leaving twitter. Even now I popped back in yesterday to let people know there's new ways to reach me now and there has been essentially no reply.
Coming into cohost was not easy. I was really just starting out everything from scratch. I mean everything. I carried over 1 friend and a lot of trauma. Coming here was basically my last shot at breaking myself out of a cycle that I am 90% sure I would not have ultimately survived. It was an all new me getting to try things out and figure what I wanted to be, but there was something about the place that just felt like this was the place to do it. That transition wasn't easy. There's probably a few of my early followers here who can vouch for how rocky it was. Yet I survived. Hell, I thrived. I used to hate who I was without even realizing it. All the kindness and support from folks on here massively helped to shape me into a person I like to be. Growing up I really just raised myself, never experiencing support like this. To this day it still easily brings me to tears.
Now, less than two year later... everything is different. Everyone has put so much work into making sure we all stay connected and have a safe place to go. This place was fucking good. I don't want to lose it, but at least I know I'm not losing the friends I made here.
I'm just gonna post this now before I find more to ramble on about... also I'm tired of crying for now
Thanks for all the 