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“But like what if you made a Hydlide like (Hydlike?) in RPG maker it shouldn’t be that hard to set up and more fun to build around than typical JRPG battles” is an actual thought in my head today.

This is one of those fights with ADHD brain that frustrates me more than any other. I have some pretty extensive conceptual and design work for multiple games (I have a one page werecreature RPG that could just use one more editing pass for playest and a few playtests afterwards to nail it down a bit more, for example). But just...remembering. Focusing, finding value in myself for working on stuff is hard. Plus a lot of the games I want to make need art and I feel like I need to do that myself probably to do it in the kinda volumes I'd need for my tragically non-commercial ideas (It's complicated).

I have however finished a few things over the years, so I don't feel like a complete faker when it comes to game design. It's just that I don't have much for how long I've been working on stuff. I had an energy when I was nine or ten that was relentless and made this garbage little game about a striped cat that wore red that I really wish I still had because it was jank but very impressive if you consider I made it when I was ten.

I really like talking about other folks designs though when I've had the opportunity. If I can be egotistical a moment I feel like I'm pretty damn good at talking and asking questions about games that I hope is useful. I kinda feel like if I was collaborating on a project with someone I'd make more progress than working alone but I also feel self consious about making those kinda connections so...

Yeah, I think about it a lot, but my brain is my own worst enemy.