In 2017, I thought I lost a good friend of mine, but I realized that wasn't the case. I've been more mindful who I associate with. And it's a nice feeling. I don't regret the choices I've made up until this point since it does feel like I've dodged a bullet... It's not a good feeling being around people who just ignore an issue and it keeps getting bigger and bigger just because they're friends with someone. Being a good friend isn't kissing someone's ass. It's being there through thick and thin.
Back in the day, I was friends with an artist that was scamming people. They say it wasn't their intention, but it was going on for some years. Which is a red flag... I didn't really know them or their life personally, but that doesn't make it okay what they did. And it makes me uncomfortable how people put this mess under the rug and enabled this person... There was 10+ people waiting and an art trade that I never got...
That's why I'm iffy with trusting people. I've been hurt a lot. I've tried to forget, but I can't forget how badly hurt I was. Despite cultural differences, it still wasn't right what was going on was really Highschool behavior. It just wasn't a fun time... I know they were young, but man... I've learned to not make friends when I'm depressed, but to work on my self so I can have the right friends, but I had to love myself first.
I was expected to just move on and forget about all the hurt because my "friend" was friends with an old friend of mine that happened to be a scammer... As far as I know, they haven't done anything recently, but they have multiple bewares...
It just doesn't feel right to me. And this was actually going on way before I even met them, which I didn't know about it up until 2015. I was hoping they've gotten better, but it seems like they just ran away which is really sad...
What's bothering me, is that some people are trying to say it was my fault that this happened which is really messed up. This isn't for me to fix. I didn't create this, just because I mentioned it.
Even though I was bitter about what was going on, I did try to look out for my friends and maybe I didn't handle it the best, but it's not like I sent a mob after this person... They even said I demonized this person, which is crazy... And I can see these people aren't right in the head so I avoid these people...
Sometimes I wonder if these people are racist cause I'm the only black native in that group and I get treated so badly, but they make mistakes (They're white btw) And it gets ignored.
Most of them were white except one other person... My culture and my own boundaries were ignored... So, yeah, I'm annoyed that people expect me to just be friends with these people 'cause that's not ever gonna happen....
I'll be alright really, it's just something that I remembered that annoyed me since people tend to focus on drama, but don't do anything about it, and I'm the bad guy since I was the only one that cared about these issues that affected them, but that isn't my fault.
I've realized it's hard for me to make friends because of situations like this which is really petty so I'm still working on trying to open up to people, I'm sorry about that. Thank you if y'all made it this far, I really appreciate it. I've been doing better, and trying to talk to good people more. 💗