I don’t have any (close by location) friends, I don’t have any siblings, I’ve mostly grown up around older people aside from like school friends. Mostly all of them were surface level friendships where we’d lose contact after growing up too. I’m so desperate for connection but when people talk to me online it’s like I clam up and don’t know what to talk about. It’s always been easier for me to talk to those much older than me; people my age were the bullies in school, the cowards sending anonymous messages that I should unalive myself, the college peers who spread rumors about me.
