High school me: I'm not really interested in drugs. I'm so weird drugs would just make me a normal person! That sounds like it sucks!
Me, 15 years, several kicked addictions, and a basic understanding of neurodivergences later: kid, you were right, but for completely different reasons than you thought, lmao
Like, I have a reputation for writing that is occasionally out there and trippy, and all the most headbending shit was written sober.
Anytime I wrote when I was drinking alcohol I would come back to it sober and find none of it usable. It was all boring fight club aphorism bullshit, and weed did not really change the quality of my writing while at the same time making it harder to even see, find, and use the keyboard.
The shit that has by and away made my work demonstrably weirder falls down to my body under stress. Sleep deprivation, fevers, dissociation, migraines and any considerable amount of pain where I didn't have access to any pain meds stronger than Ibuprofen have all produced some wild turns and visuals.
And technically a drug did make me "normal." ADHD meds let me match my neurotypical classmates and coworkers in terms of output and organization! I get treated less like shit when I'm on them! It's kind of fucked up!
Also I'm not really here to pass judgment on anybody who does use drugs, just overwhelmingly my experiences with them have indicated I cannot really use them without developing devestating problems. It's rough being sober all the time but it also means I will be around and relatively sane a lot longer.