If you could change anything about the inception of KDARC and what it evolved into, what would you choose to do?
I have been thinking about my answer for months now, and honestly? There is nothing I really want to change.
Sure, I have things I regret, in part. Poor decisions, or things I couldn't have known at the time when I did them. Aesthetic tweaks. Fights I picked. Fights I didn't but should have.
But those things, too, shaped what KDARC became. If I had avoided the morphic korps, I don't think I would have gotten quite as close with @contextual when we both bailed on it, and her influence on my little spooky corner was immeasurable. If I hadn't spent so many early days cribbing aesthetic and structure from control, I don't know that I would have evolved Beyond it into a large scale critique of corporate/governmental hierarchy. My reach constantly exceeded my grasp, but the things my poor little paws fell on when they missed those lofty goals were just as important to making it what it was and is. Every failure or letdown was a chance to rethink what I was doing, or pivot my goals entirely.
Is KDARC perfect? Far from it! The only real thing I wish I could change is that I had written more while it was still my biggest passion project, and that circumstances of life and pain hadn't prevented me for getting so much of it to the page and leaving so much of it in my head.
But I'm proud of it, even its shortcomings, and I'm thankful to everyone who worked with me, even if I will never speak to some of the early ones ever again, because it is a hulking nebulous shadow on the horizon in the dark, forever just beyond true understanding, but damn it, it's our hulking nevulous shadow, and it is, no matter what, an accomplishment. We made the world weirder and the path to that made it what it is.
Sorry it took me months to answer this ^ w ^;;;