Andréa, Canis Lanonbinary

It's that I have strong ADHD it gives me a constant compulsion to speak out loud and switching between a bunch of tiny little thoughts and snippets helps with being constantly understimulated. Between not getting neurotypical people and often misaligning with certain flavors of autism I get a lot of not being normal to either side, instead of being some sort of bridge. I don't even know if I know what small talk is! It's one of those things that seems to have some definition my brain doesn't have the context or maybe capacity to grasp, like Al Dente or how to hold a guitar pick properly or painting color theory or i would say playing in the pocket but I DO get that one or why we treat current as flowing positive to negative when it actually electrons move the other way but somehow it still works or why when I talk so long sometimes words stop having meaning anyways hi I finally have a smidge of estrogen in me and some caffiene and I am so wired and don't know how to stop help