CJ

I just this moment of feeling shitty because my mood is all over the place lately, and I'll feel like dirt one minute and then later that day I'm super hopeful, and thinking about it I felt like I had to be doing something wrong, and then I realized what was happening and had to step back and be like

CJ

Buddy

You're bipolar.

That's... That's what bipolar is. That's not something you're doing wrong, that's your fucked up brain chemistry.

Dial it back, me, it's okay. It's not on you. Just breathe, you'll get through this.

But not enough energy to go around to them all cause I'm disabled, fucking fuck I want to play all the games!!!

damn my human body

My arms hurt a fair bit right now, so looks like we can upgrade that from "a temporary problem" to "the new reality"

Looks like I'm gonna have to try and take today a little easier

Accidentally turned on my camera trying to grab my phone on the holder, immediate gender affirmation and joy from seeing myself despite being in pain, now also sick as a dog, and in desperate need of a haircut