Things I have thought about doing in the past 20 minutes:
- Making a game in RPG Tsukuru 2 on the SNES
- Researching unionization at my job
- Playing through and writing up all the Global A Entertainment RPGs (Dungeon Maker, My World My Way, etc.)
- Making an album to learn how to make dance music
- Doing a new DJ set
- Making a series of videos on how to make music in Bespoke
And my reaction to all of this is to tell myself I'm being unrealistic and that I need to focus on whatever is in front of me.
And I'm sick of it! I have good ideas! It's okay that I don't finish lots of them! I'm cool as hell and my ideas are cool as hell!!
I think I've internalized a lot of shame from shitheads around me when I was a kid basically telling me I either had to be perfect or not do it at all, or that I was an unfocused dingus who had to fight against all of my own tendencies just to be accepted.
Obviously I can't do all of these things, but I think I need to be kinder to myself and just start doing things even if they never get finished.
