sometimes i feel like i'm not autistic at all, i just relate to all the shit i've read by autistic people about their experiences because "i really want to" (not true)
then i read something about the therian experience (phantom limbs, attempting to use appendages you don't have, etc.) and as much as i want to relate to it, i simply cannot. i'm empathetic and hearing about those experiences is informative but it's very much not me at all
so in a way it sort of reinforces that i am on the spectrum because there are tons of things i can't relate to at all, so i should pay special attention to the things i can relate to
also good lord i really don't trust my own thought processes do i
what's it like to trust your own brain? anyone here know?