I have a complex relationship wiff my online presence and today I ended up trading one form of stress and anxiety for another after fighting wiff myself for a while on how to solve the problem(s) I was facing.
In my head I had already made the decision I had taken but my heart was telling me something else and my instincts another.
What one should I listen to? What one should i ignore while continuing to subject myself to a form of online self harm even though the struggle took place behind the scenes.
The anxiety I tossed myself into upon making my choice will pass but it's making me feel like I caused unnecessary harm or worry in the process or like I was doing this as a form of attention seeking when that's not it at all.
I needed to take a step whether right or wrong that would ensure I gave myself the space and time I needed while figuring a few things out and reevaluating others.
