I'm going to walk away from the adventures of a woof idea and instead just try to stick with journal entries throughout the day.
It is my hope similar to the thoughts of a woof posts that maybe i can start freeing up space, listen to myself and open up? How well will i be able to keep up wiff it i'm not sure? I've tried journaling many times in the past but when you're surrounded by constant noise and distraction it makes it hard to not only write but to stay focused. So, again well see what happens and i'll do away with the thoughts of a woof tag too awoo.
The plan for the day as of right now is to get out again today and wander around. Thinking I might keep my setup simple today? There's also a nice layer of fog out so who knows, maybe I'll head out to Lost Lake? I haven't been out there in a long time and its a place that i enjoy and might be able to restage a scenery photo from a few years back?
It's also injection day so after I shower and get some noms I need to top of the cute floofy woof juice. Hopefully wiff no major complications? I tend to hit a bad site every so often and we all know what happens then. OUCH!
I failed to mention this but Friday was a year and 5 months sense starting HRT. Its been hard to tell at times but i know its changed my life for the better. The alot of the physical changes are slow going and at times my brain likes to get mean and compare my progress to others and wonder why i don't look as fem as them when they've been on HRT for the same or less amount of time. I hate that my brain does this and at times it feels like what work i've made in this area has been for not.
I know i get extremely down and hard on myself too awoo, even if i don't realize it. It is my hope once again like with everything that this and many other things that i've been struggle to work on and make progress wiff gets better once settled in the house and away from the toxic people and enviroments that my current situation forces me into. I'm worthy of so much more and so much better. I also need to remember a lot of the lessons i've learned throughout my photography journey as well bc it's tied into my transition and is allowing my to get out and be more myself even if i might not be presenting in a more fem way.
I've come along way so far in my transition and i need to take pride in that and acknowledge that more too awoo. My transition started way before i "offically" started it and i never realized it until earlier in the week when my whole perspective on it changed a fair bit, But thats an entry for a later date.
Be kind to yourself Arwen. You may not realize it but you're doing a wonderful job and you have a wonderful group of friends that love you, care for you and enjoy you for being your weird silly self. Just keep taking it one day at a time and don't let that smol spark of hope go out. You've proved that your situation will get better even if its happening on the slower road or at a different pace than others. Its a JOURNEY a marathon, not a sprint and you can't do it alone. So, learn to enjoy it and embrace it. Be in the moment and think of it like your adventures and wanderings while doing photos. Capture your wonderful rare and beautiful memories along the away.