feel like a loser and a spoiled brat cause i'm so jealous that my friends have gaming consoles [god i want switch so bad] and that they get nice presents and they can afford things ontop of getting expensive presents given to them like
i'm supremely happy for them too it's so cool for them and i'm so glad they get to enjoy drawing and playing games and fancy nice clothes like genuinely it feels so bad to feel jealous because i'm also so genuinely happy for them
but i can't help but kind of hate my life cause we didn't celebrate at all this year, and so my only christmas present this year was a cheap sweater from walmart from my grandma [i'm very glad i got anything though it's warm and i will wear it until it starts fraying and pilling and gets too gross to wear] and cotton candy. And I didn't even get to eat the cotton candy because my nephew took it and my grandma told him he could.. it... literally being half of the only christmas present i got, and he basically went 'well i want it anyway'
last year my only christmas presents were a steam game, and a big bag of doritos my nephew got me. I don't even gets cards or well wishes or 5 dollars or anything anymore really.
fuck
