Part of my trick for handling the passage of time is to not think of oldness as inherently disgusting
remember that getting old is a privelege, especially for the f-slur crowd and suddenly the laugh lines and grey hairs become something to be thankful for.
it's a rarity. it's patina. it's provenance. you are fine ironstone china. made to look beautiful and fragile, but never to shatter, despite it all.