A JSE Fanfic
Chapter Eight: Wahnvorstellung
[This is part of an INCOMPLETE SERIES that I wrote in about 2018-2019. I don't know if I'll ever finish it, but I still think there's good stuff in it, and merit in reposting it here. Bottling up your problems never leads to anything good. A familiar environment, now changed, sets off a series of severe flashbacks.]
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“Henrik! Wait!”
“Doc, please!”
Schneep heard their cries and didn’t stop running. He didn’t want to hear any of their excuses. He didn’t want to calm down and go back to Marvin and that—that OTHER man, who was supposed to be named Jameson but how could that be possible how could it be when he’d seen him that night with the glitch himself what was happening he didn’t know—
It took him a while to start seeing his surroundings again. He’d been running on adrenaline and a basic need to get somewhere safe, so he’d followed his instincts and fled to his hospital office. Or at least, what had been his office. The nameplate next to the door had been changed. Now it belonged to some doctor with an even more ridiculous name. Schneep glanced around. He’d managed to lose Jackie and Chase, but he didn’t want to risk seeing them. On impulse, he reached for the door and turned the handle. Surprisingly, the door opened without resistance.
The office inside could’ve been a movie set, it was so plain and bland. No, not even that. It was like a display in a furniture store. All the necessary items were there: desk, chairs, filing cabinets. But there was nothing personal. No coats draped over the coat hanger. No picture frames on the desks. No…nothing.
Schneep wandered over to the desk. It was so surreal to see this room stripped and empty. He wondered what they’d done with all his things. He knew he’d left a jacket on one of the chairs. And he’d had photos of his wife and kids, from before…what happened to them? Did the police take them as evidence? Did one of the others decide to keep them safe? Or did they just get thrown away? Logically, that was the least likely, but the doctor couldn’t shake the feeling that was exactly what happened.
The desk’s surface was clear. There wasn’t even any paperwork. There was a laptop computer open, its screen off. Instinctively, Schneep slammed it shut. Static screen…watching from the webcam…he didn’t want that.
It was only when he backed away from the computer that he realized his hands were shaking.
Nothing was safe. HE was always there, always watching. Schneep had hoped that once he got away he wouldn’t have to think about it ever again. That he’d just have to wake up Jack and then everything could go back to normal. Never mind that he knew this hope would never come to fruition. You can’t simply forget about everything that’s happened. But he wanted, at least, to be safe around his friends. But that just wasn’t happening, with Chase’s kids gone and that stranger here.
Maybe this whole thing wasn’t even real. Maybe it was just another illusion. Maybe Schneep would wake up any minute and be there, and he’d be laughing at him and the foolish dreams he’d fallen prey to—
No. Stop it.
But it didn’t work.
Maybe he’d really gotten away, but the others still weren’t there, and he’d been running around talking to himself, and when he tried to get help people wouldn’t even look his way because they thought he was crazy. Maybe the others had all been captured and he could hear them but their cries were being filtered through the hallucination. Maybe he was the one in the coma instead of Jack and this was all a dream caused by him.
Maybe Jack was already—
“I think he’s in here.”
“But the door is locked.”
“He could’ve locked it behind him.”
“Doc! Are you in there?”
Somehow, Schneep realized he’d fallen to the floor. He didn’t know how or when it happened, and he couldn’t think clearly enough through the whirling in his mind. He didn’t bother answering the call.
“Actually, would he even answer? He’s kinda pissed off at us.”
“Well, okay, maybe not. You sure the door is locked?”
“Yeah. D’you think we should break it—”
BAM!
The door flew open. Jackie stumbled into the room, propelled by the force of the blow he’d used to break it down. Chase hurried forward to catch him before he fell. “Thanks,” Jackie mumbled. “Now…Henrik? Are you in here?”
There was no answer, but Chase nudged Jackie and pointed to an arm peeking out from behind the desk. The two of them exchanged worried look. “Trap?” Chase mouthed. Jackie shrugged, and jerked his head toward the desk. The two of them crept forward. On the other side of the desk, Schneep was curled up into a ball, one hand protecting his head like he was waiting for an attack that would never come, the other flung out like he was reaching for something.
“Doc? You okay?” Chase asked nervously.
There was no answer. Jackie hovered, unsure of what to do. He’d never seen his friend like this before. Mentally, he thought of all the various victims of crimes he’d met in his hero career. Was Schneep in some sort of shock? The behavior seemed to match a bit. Okay, what to do with people in shock? He wasn’t a professional in these matters, but maybe he could get Schneep at least mostly functional again. He knelt on the ground beside him and said in a quiet voice “Henrik? Henrik, we need you to answer.” Still no response. Chase gave Jackie another worried look.
Jackie made a small shush sound in Chase’s direction. He could handle this. Probably. Then he turned his attention back to Schneep. “Hey, Henrik? Schneep? Doctor Schneeplestein? We need to get out of here.” When there was still no response, Jackie leaned back and thought a bit more. Maybe there was something physically wrong. It wouldn’t hurt to check. “Henrik, I’m just gonna see if you’re alright, okay?” Jackie reached toward the doctor’s wrist, intending to start by taking a pulse.
The moment his hand touched Schneep’s, it was batted away. With a sudden lurch, Schneep sat straight up and forcibly pushed Jackie hard enough to knock him over. The hero hit his head against the floor with a loud CLUNK!
“Jackie! Are you okay?” Chase rushed to the aid of his friend.
“’M fine,” Jackie grunted, rubbing the back of his head where it impacted the hard wooden floor.
Chase turned to Schneep. “Dude, what’s up with you? We’re here to help!”
That only seemed to make it worse. Schneep’s eyes widened, and he froze. Only for a moment though, which was broken by a sudden shriek that Chase didn’t immediately register as coming from Schneep. Partly because the shriek was followed by a frantic attempt to scramble away from Chase as Schneep crawled under the desk.
“Doc?” Chase leaned past Jackie and looked into the recess under the desk. “What’re you doing?”
“GET AWAY!”
Chase’s head whipped backward and a sickening crack shot through the air. He felt warm liquid trickling down his face, and a second later came the pain. “He hit me!” Chase said, astonished.
Jackie sat up. “I don’t think—I think something’s very wrong right now. With him. You okay?”
Chase touched the site of injury, causing a flare of pain. “I think he broke my nose.”
Jackie gritted his teeth. “Okay, normally I’m all for letting people work out their issues at their own pace, but we should at least get him out of this place. It might be making whatever this is worse. I know I’d be freaking out if I got stuck in my old office after so long away. So, as much as I hate to do this, I think force is an appropriate response. Nothing else’s worked. So on the count of three, you and I are gonna have to pull him out of there. Got it?”
Chase nodded, trying his best to wipe away the blood. They’d both hate to do it, but Schneep wasn’t making it any easier. “Alright.” Jackie took a deep, steadying breath. “One…two…” A brief moment of hesitation. “Three!”
They moved together, grabbing Schneep and desperately trying to get him out into the open. The doctor tried equally desperately to stay hidden, one minute trying to brace against the sides of the desk and stay rooted in place, the next flailing wildly, hitting every inch of the other two. Eventually, with determination and a fair amount of bruising, Chase and Jackie pulled Schneep away from his hiding place.
“LEAVE ME ALONE ALREADY!”
One solid hit landed against the side of Jackie’s head, jolting him enough to get him to let go. Chase had enough common sense to get in between Schneep and the desk before he could dart back underneath. Again, Schneep froze. There were tears in his eyes.
“Doc, come on, you gotta listen to reason here,” Chase pleaded.
“NO! No more your reason!” He pushed and pounded at Chase. “I do not—you will not—I cannot do anymore!”
“Henrik, stop!” Jackie, having recovered his wits, acted quickly, wrapping Schneep up in a hug of death that pinned his arms to his sides. “Leave Chase alone!”
Schneep shook his head, looking from side to side. “Is not here. Is not here. Is you, do not lie.”
“Me?” Jackie frowned, confused. “Who…? I’m Jackie, Henrik.”
“Is not. Is not. You are liar.”
“Who do you think…” Jackie trailed off as realization dawned. They DID all look similar, didn’t they? “Henrik, no, he’s not here! You’re not stuck with him anymore!”
“STOP LYING TO ME!” Schneep wailed. “I do not—I do not want—do not make me, please—”
“Don’t make you…what?”
“I do not want—they are my friends, I will not—I am doctor, I do not hurt—please do not—bitte nicht—”
Oh god. “No, Hen, this—I’m not gonna make you—” Jackie looked to Chase for help, but he looked just as shocked. “We’re just gonna…get out of here,” Jackie muttered.
Schneep had no protest to that. He’d shut down, not moving, vaguely muttering things, switching back and forth between his two languages. In retrospect, Jackie realized it probably wasn’t the best idea to wrap up someone having a panic attack. But they had to fix that later. He wasn’t sure how thick the walls of the hospital were, but there was a chance that people had heard the shouting and were coming to check it out. With Chase being a suspect in a kidnapping, Jackie didn’t even want to think what this would look like.
“Chase, we’re going back to the apartment,” Jackie said. He stood up, bringing Schneep with him.
“I…okay.” Chase winced. A few of the doctor’s desperate punches had hit pretty hard. But he stood up without difficulty. “Why not my house?”
“Police may be watching. Probably already weird that you two left so suddenly, and then you come back and one of you’s catatonic. Also it’s closer. Can you just…” Jackie shifted his weight. “I mean, I’m pretty strong, but it might be good for him to have physical contact that’s not quite as…constricting.”
“Oh. Yeah bro, I’ll help.” Chase took one of Schneep’s arms and threw it around his shoulders. “God, what…is this our fault?”
“Maybe a little bit…” Jackie didn’t want to admit it, but it was true. “But I think…I think a lot of it is his fault. He did…whatever it was that made Schneep this way.”
Chase nodded. “Is he gonna be okay.”
Jackie honestly didn’t know. But he couldn’t say that in front of Chase, who already had a hard time seeing the bright side. “Eventually.” He forced himself to put a touch of optimism into his voice. “Let’s go.”
As they left, Chase brought up a fair point: “Hey, how’d the door get locked? I don’t think he has keys anymore.”
“I…don’t know. But there’s no good explanation.”
Indeed, it felt like they were being watched the whole way home.