How can i love myself when you wont? When someone with an outside view of us cant even see anything they care about.
Self love is arrogance, its seeing something good inside yourself that you can love, even if everyone else, with more objective views of you, find nothing of worth, or are disgusted by what they see.
I am acutely aware of myself, everything i do is neutral or negative, i dont love anything about myself because there isnt anything i do or am that feels exceptional, because i do it, it feels normal, regular, ordinary. If its not ordinary its a flaw, something i hate in myself, something to kill, to destroy...
Ive deleted so much of myself, so many perceived flaws, all in the hopes of being loved...
I just want to feel loved...