it's a good day to reflect on things
i feel like i've been spinning my wheels for a bit, making progress in some specific areas, but things generally have stalled
last year's theme was overcoming anxiety, and i can recognize the progress made there. we're never going to be the biggest social butterflies in the room, but we've made at least some improvements
this year's theme was creativity, and i've struggled recognizing it at points, but it's fair to say that I've expressed myself in more and better ways than previously. some of that is notes that no one else will potentially ever see 1, but also things like realizing a few weeks before furality that the outfit idea i've had just wasn't going to fit the con and to make something new quickly while listening to a lot of amie waters' BOTW cover
i think next year's theme may just need to be "generally unfucking shit"
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for example, one of the people that wished me a happy birthday today was one of the first artists we discovered when we found out macro art was A Thing. that got me thinking
about why we've never commissioned them, and that then got me to make a list of artists who we absolutely want to comm but haven't yet
to find some way of managing tasks that works well with the ADHD
to be at least a little more out and proud offline rather than just online
to dig through, inventory, box up or get rid of stuff around our room
we do not know all of what we have
and we do not know where the things are that aren't in their defined home
to dedicate time to learning new useful skills (including enhancing creativity) rather than sticking on yet another pokemon challenge run as anything other than background noise
we take a lot of VRC photos
wouldn't it be nice to learn to edit them
or figure out how to get IRL photos to look as good
3 years ago, i said that i'll search for a new job "once the pandemic's over"
of course, it was never over
but also my main problem was the commute and that mostly got fixed, and i feel like i can deal with the rest for the financial stability; i don't believe climbing further up the corporate ladder would increase happiness
but still, i should be more prepared for if things suddenly go south; my curriculum vitae hasn't been updated in years