Dex

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...fictional ex-90s platformer mascot, nerd, plural, Ξ˜Ξ”.


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my yearly theme for this year is "the year of creativity"

and i keep judging myself harshly for not having drawn much
and still having a tendency to passively consume podcasts or youtube videos
or things like our brain getting caught on getting all achievements for vampire survivors and then boneraiser minions

but earlier today someone said "i wish i could do the things you do" (in unity) and that kind of floored me (even if we perhaps didn't show it at 5am)

because sure we put a decent amount of time in, but most of the time we're just
following basic inkscape guides for the things we want to achieve
or discovering something new in poiyomi's settings and playing with it

breaking things knowing that we're one command away from restoring them in git

and writing things out, of course that's creativity
but sometimes it doesn't feel like it in the moment


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hmm.

i think we've still got stuck on things sometimes - effectively quitting twitter around july has been both a blessing and a curse, it's given extra time when we can focus, but we're still filling it with junk when we can't
but also some friends haven't left twitter which means a lot less opportunity for those casual off the cuff teases, so it's a creative writing outlet down and not fully replaced.
(and even without the anxiety, we aren't with it enough to do vocal teases at 5am)

and i know that right now i'm not doing much in unity but i haven't need to beyond the additional setup needed for πŸ’œ's avatar
i'm not like a certain wolf-skull we know who'll very suddenly get inspired to make big changes just by seeing something cool on gumroad
presumably once furality announces their theme, that'll kick that back into gear

work still feels like it's sapping creative energy
but that's the job
sometimes you have to do the whole herlock sholmes thing to figure out why windows has decided to break

i do still regret not drawing more but it's a very easy habit to slide off
part of it is the perfectionism still getting in the way but some of it feels like fundamental weaknesses in construction that I don't think our brain is well equipped to deal with
i can at least doodle and have it sometimes get picked in civic doodle or tee k.o., so that's something, i guess


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