DieselBrain

@DieselBrain

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DieselBrain
@DieselBrain

I need to figure out how to unclench my fucking butthole, artwise. I focus so much on making clean, polished work, and im proud of said work, but ive become so ANXIOUS around my art making as a result.

Every piece must be better, it must be my best i can put out. I dont just play around anymore, im too frightened of the lost time if a pic doesnt work. So often i tie myself into a knot worrying about a pic, worrying to tears at times, before a line is even placed down

I need to fix this but i dont know how, especially when i spend so much time and energy on commissions. I dont know how to let go.

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Malusdraco
@Malusdraco

it might be worthwhile to just spend some time doing studies, but to limit the time you're doing them in. half an hour? you can waste half an hour on something and even if it goes really poorly you've got however much time left in your day to fuss over your normal art.
if 30 minutes is too much, even 15 minutes doing something like 15 1-minute studies can help loosen up a bit

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capydiem
@capydiem

Sometimes I feel stunned because of ""perfectionism"" or whatever. sometimes it helps loosen up if I purposefully set myself out to make a drawing that will look wonky, crooked, uneven, exaggerated, off proportions, with bleeding colors, no intentions to nail a light source or textures.

Just make something weird that maybe wouldn't go on social media even. Maybe that helps to break the ice if I understood your issue correctly

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DieselBrain
@DieselBrain

nods

Ok, i understand better now, thank you for elaborating.

I guess one more maybe kinda dumb question but, when "purposefully" drawing something badly, do you allow yourself to fix things, or do you treat it more like drawing with pen on paper where the line stays, like it or not?

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ChrisNSFW
@ChrisNSFW

I was struggling with the same problem a year or so ago and part of what helped me was just taking all the underwhelming or messy or unfinished stuff that I wasn't really happy with, saying "fuck it", posting it anyway, and then seeing that people still enjoyed it. I always try to make my art for me, and not to worry about what other people will think, but despite my best efforts I remain absolutely dogshit at not worrying about what other people think, so I really needed that confirmation of "Oh, actually, people still like this. Nobody thinks less of me for not being at 100% literally all the time, it's fine, it's not the end of the world if I make something imperfect."

(Also, seconding Capy's recommendation of making something bad and/or weird on purpose. Just fuck around and if you hit any part of the drawing process that starts to feel bad, literally just skip it. I've also had a lot of fun messing with weird fucked up art programs or art video games with tools that are so limited that you basically can't make anything perfect in them. Having a built-in excuse for imperfection like that helped me more than I care to admit)

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