A lot of things recently have me wondering what I want to do in life, so I'm just going to put this under a cut.

I'm not really happy with my current job.

It's a fine job. Easy, pays very well, consistent schedule for the most part.

The issue is that... I'm just kind of there.

Everyone jokes with each other and has conversations about everything they like, while I don't share the same interests or tastes, so I just... sit there quietly.

Even though I'm praised for doing a good job and told I'm going to do more and more exciting things, I get regulated to only the entry level tasks because I'm the only one that can seem to get them done without any mistakes. I'm too good at my job to be moved to a different position. They won't even hire more people because they have me.

I started my first year working overtime every week. Either 6 days or over 40 hours every week, no days requested off. In return, even though they told me doing this would lead me to a management position, they gave management to two others well before I got a promotion. Even that was stripped from me though.

I've been taking the streaming thing more seriously recently. It takes my mind off of how unhappy I am at my job just due to not getting anywhere there. Seeing my metrics go up has been great, and while I need to learn how to handle the bad metrics when those roll in, I'm really liking trying to figure out what to stream and how I want to stream. I went from being quiet to basically rambling as long as I have someone to bounce off of.

I do wish I could stream for a job. I know it is stressful and wouldn't be as much money as I currently make, but I'd probably have a lot more fun and joy actually working for it than what I'm doing now. It's definitely not feasible right now, and would be incredibly irresponsible.

Just tired of being... well, tired.