who else is up trying to reconcile their desperate craving for attention with their maladaptive fear of being perceived

who else is up trying to reconcile their desperate craving for attention with their maladaptive fear of being perceived
this is just a callout post I see through your lies /silly
I want to be perceived, but only positively
but I'm neither perfect nor skilled in mind control so I would have to take the bad with the good
but the bad would stick with me more than the good, even if there was objectively less of it
so