Thinking about gender identity and people who "always knew" versus people who didn't, and how self-recognition can be not just something like "I am girl" but also something like "girl is me"
Thinking about gender identity and people who "always knew" versus people who didn't, and how self-recognition can be not just something like "I am girl" but also something like "girl is me"
"in me is at least two girls and a boy and a Thing With Eyes and a sharp and shapeless cutting edge and a nameless fire"
as a genderfluid person i feel this a lot. i notice sometimes ill feel kinda negative about identifying as a femboy or woman or man or whatever, and while sometimes that's just how it is, other times i realize its because the particular identity shifted from a freeing thing to a restraint or expectation or too much of a delineation. but sometimes if i let myself take a second look and dissipate certain things then the identity in question can feel good again, like "femboy but its not a limitation" or "woman but also other things"(like when im bigender).
sometimes ambiguous fears or weird anxieties about other people or just approaching a word at a particular angle/positioning it in a particular relative way can trick us into being worried.