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been doing a Lot of general life improvement stuff but I hate how I can FEEL the tense horror movie music building suspense behind me like some shoe's about to drop and make me Oh So Very Stressed And Bad Again. it's probably the impending holiday season mixed with general seasonal affective disorder
my therapist would ask me.... hm. something like "why do you think you feel this way?" and I would say something "because things are always good until they aren't. everything has ups and downs and I compulsively feel the need to brace for impact before I know what's coming" then shed ask me to look at my list of coping skills when I feel this tension and pick something from it to do.
I think I'm going to make my current to-do list updated, then make a list of stuff that's been going really well for me lately and the next step I can take for those things, then drink some water and take a nap. then when I wake up do my to-do list
good thing my therapy is free through insurance bc this shits easy. of course having someone with big "big sister" vibes tell me to do these things helps. my therapist is good