Donnie!!!!!

I'm getting my first Ritalin+Adderall scripts filled today (yes my psych gave me both??? insane but what am I gonna do, say no?) and I'm going to be so fulfilled again soon. ive taken stimulants in the past before (if you're a cop then no I didn't) and I felt like my completely normal self like I was supposed to be and I was able to do all my hobbies and interests AND my chores and have complete thoughts. like I'm preemptively weeping. I remember it feeling like putting on glasses, or coming up for air. I know meds don't work for everyone but goddamn they were a life changer for me. and now they'll be in my mailbox in 5 hours. though I guess I can't take them til Saturday. but still. auuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh I'm so excited to be me again