As in much as I tell myself I shouldn't be ashamed in asking for help...

Well.. umm... help?

Loans are about to go into charge off, further tanking a cred score that's now lost enough to start directly impacting my chances with landlords. Before we talk about the fact my best job prospect seems to be Culvers. Because.

FUCK.
JOB.
HUNTING.

My debts are $900 a month to start, before we even think about anything else. If I want to keep making full payments on everything. How do I even begin with that?

My bank account might have enough to make a move, and only that, if I'm lucky.

I've got zero housing prospects right now thanks to people being assholes, past a highly temporary arrangement that more than likely won't be enough.

I feel like I'm pretty much going to be forced to medically detrans because i simply can't afford those either when this already low supply runs out, a prospect that honestly i find the most terrifying of all.

I just want to be able to slow, down, to stop, to find a place for myself, and slinking back home to my half dead father and a bedridden mom with stage 4 kidney failure just to sit in a basement, pay bills till I die, and watch them do the same is not the life I want or ASKED FOR!

I don't know what to do...

I feel like there's no way out of this...

Honestly even making a begging post seems kinda pointless?

Kinda like everything else right now....

I don't need (well I do but...) money. I need HELP I need advice. I need somewhere safe. I need a way out that isn't careening from one crisis to the next.

So hey, if anyone wants an old broken almost 43 year old stray, one sitting in the cardboard box while the thunderstorm gets ready to just sweep me away...

Let me know?

Just saying...

Cause I'm just so tried of all of this...

And two days from now I get that reminder of another year wasted.

Ha...

Happy birthday to me...

Anyway...

Paypal link is below, and there's the Ko-Fi too in the profile. If you can help, it's appreciated, but again resources more than fundage, that'd be... better... maybe?

Eh sighing shrug

Sina signing off.