realizing we definitely have some complex impostor syndrome thoughts with regards to our own plurality
We do too, but mostly Logan who is our "original"... he fears that he's controlling all of us just because he feels like he can see everything happening and how everything works, and being able to see that makes him think that he is doing it.
The rest of us don't feel that way because we're all confident in our own existences, due to the fact that we have our own individual self-identities and personalities... but Logan, knowing he is an "original", feels that he would be the one controlling everything if we were faking. So he is the one who gets the majority of the impostor syndrome.
Accepting that you're in a system requires you to accept the fact that you will feel things that directly contradict that fact. You will feel like you are a singlet and just imagining or acting. You will feel like you are the sole inhabitant of the body.
At the very least... try to keep willingly identifying as a system despite the fact that your brain keeps trying to make you feel otherwise. The next step is to learn to doubt the accuracy of those feelings... but for some, that's not possible (like with us), so the most we can do is try to ignore them.
Ignoring them won't necessarily help with the impostor syndrome, unless you can somehow become comfortable with it or keep it off your mind...
For us, we have all sorts of theories on all the different ways that we could be a system, and we personally hold the opinion that it doesn't even really matter how our system works if we feel plural and act plural. We just are plural and fit all the criteria for DID, objectively.
Yeah, lots of the same stuff here. For us, i think it's mostly about being monoconscious-ish and most plural things feeling like it only considers polyconsciousness. We have a lot of feelings and insecurities about this but it's hard to express right now so this short summary will have to do
(Cohost deleted my entire post just because our internet blipped for a few seconds... so I lost an entire essay... what follows is my best summary, because I'm not retyping all that.)
"Monoconsciousness" is actually very common, at least if you're referring to systems that always/mostly use non-possessive switching.
Non-possessive switching is when the current fronter just starts being another member instead without being disrupted. Personality, likes and dislikes, desires and skills will change to match who you just became, but you keep your memories and thoughts and everything.
You never stop being yourself, it's just that "yourself" changes. You might not even notice when it does, even if you eventually realize that you either feel different, act different, or were just doing something that you wouldn't normally (or were earlier!).
In some systems you don't even have to become anyone in particular, you could even be a combination of multiple members. Sometimes you can't even really tell who you are without observing your own behaviors and interests.
Does this describe your experience at all?