Wow. So, last night ended well because of all that. It hadn't felt as genuinely absorbed in something positive for a while; it misses it a lot. It made three hours feel like one, in what feels like the longest weekend of its life as it waits for an interview tomorrow. It was a welcome, and honestly cherished surprise. It thinks it should focus a little more on just occasionally rambling; would be fun, and something to take its mind off of things in its downtime that isn't downtime because it's not actually relaxing
It does kind of enjoy the simple idea of "hey, let it just write about us; if people find it interesting, cool. If not, well, maybe it can share those thoughts with people it already knows". It thinks that's enough for it. It also thinks it helps a little with just, processing things to a degree. Not really current things -- it's honestly intentionally avoiding those because of how personal, distressing, and emotional those things are -- but it thinks it helps it keep everything beyond that somewhat sorted out, or give it something to work with. Dunno, it thinks it's healthy, at least; that's what matters to it, even if it's not the best or anything
It can't help but kind of just viscerally enjoy the act of writing like it's doing an exposition dump of its life, taking several hours to; Danganronpa style. Just even kind of making this information about us even remotely available is nice. It feels like the feeling one would get gushing about a significant other, or hobby they're interested in. It's not exactly like that, but it can relate the two feelings; it's a little freeing to us, helps to fuel our passion, and helps us recognize how much we mean -- or should, thanks self esteem issues -- to ourselves
It's tempted to write a bunch more now, but it doesn't have any ideas yet. One thing it'd like to mention: if anyone does want to hear specific things about it, it's more than happy to indulge that, either by writing a post or referring to one it's already made