Still feeling Not Great. Got quite a few rejections today, too, to really add onto this. But we have to go to the store and meal prep for the eek but it's like...that's energy. Things to do. But we do need to do THINGS instead of sitting here and never doing anything.
We went to the store and we didnt realize how bad we were dissociating until the cashier spoke to us lol. And it was like. Oh okay we're here and we exist we need to talk to another person.
Did the cooking and Aelita wanted to clean so she did a fuckton of dishes so that managed to reset our mood to....neutral, I guess? But not in a bad way, in a decent way. We got some beta reading done, too, so that's good.
Now we're just lying on the couch in the living room under the fan and listening to the seagulls scream at each other outside.
It's...strange, we grew up in a state with very few beaches, only ever went for field trips, so the idea of going to the beach was such a foreign thing, only RICH people went to the beach! Especially nice ones where it's always sunny and warm. And that's where we live now.
Weve come so far and accomplished so much to get out of our shitty situation. It's been about a decade now, I think. I'd have to go on LinkedIn and check the years for our jobs, but we're someplace nice, safe, where we can just lay on the couch and not do anything and not have to worry about our stuff or being yelled at or anything. It's nice to just...exist, and not have to do anything else.