someone we used to be friends with kept silently removing me from their friends list whenever I was inactive for more than like a week. since it's discord, I can't message/contact them at all anymore when this happens. but usually I could send a new friend request and they'd accept it in like, a day, and then things were back to normal.
this time though, once I got back, they left my friend request pending for a month. never accepted. it's kind of funny, because this time I was planning to tell them I'm not comfortable being treated this way, and leave for good. just my fucking luck that this is when they decide never to add me back. can't even let me give a proper goodbye.
I'm not going to attempt to reach out to them anymore or try to stay friends with them. we can't handle being treated this way, whether it's personal or not. if they won't even let me say goodbye, I'm not going to stress myself out trying to reach them again. since, you know. I'm leaving and all.
just sucks that this basically amounts to "silently blocking us in our sleep" which has always been extremely triggering to us. it's just that instead of them having the balls to outright say "I don't want to be your friend anymore" they just kept trying to silently slip away and eventually just stopped letting us talk to them at all.
instead of simply telling us what we did wrong, stuff like this makes us simultaneously fear every possible thing we could have done wrong, even the stuff that may not be true. it's so fucking exhausting, and it's permanent unresolvable trauma every single time we can't ever speak to them again to figure out what actually happened. or even to say goodbye.