Leolin (list of names in bio)

I am anxiously flipping through things on my phone because I know exactly what I need to be doing for work and how easy it will be if only I could start on it, but I don't want to do it so badly that it physically hurts to try

It took me three weeks to rewrite a script that when I actually did it was entirely removing unnecessary parts, I did not write a single new line of code yet accomplished the task and it took me three weeks to do this 15 minute job

Not being able to be nice to myself is another of my disabilities.

We are so lucky to be one of the cases where it can be treated absolutely magically by medication, but we still haven't quite figured out the dosage so we still fall into depression near the end of every day... It's so much better than being in much worse depression all day though, which is what it was like before we started.

I plan to post about our journey once we've found a stable regimen~

It's very hard to be nice to myself sometimes when it's been over a week since I've achieved anything meaningful When I actually manage to focus on something I end up slipping into a fog where I fiddle with values for hours on end getting an hour of work done in 5 hours I just don't know what's different the few times I'm actually productive, meds help but not nearly enough and no matter how much I remind myself it's a disability I still feel crushed