Just had a train of thought lead me here. You know, unless you went through it, it's really hard to describe, how fucking weird it is to transition from straight guy to straight girl1, especially if you didn't have attraction to guys before. Or, well, was in deep denial of it. Because thinking of yourself as a guy with another guy just feels wrong for some reason. This denial was even harder to break than denial about being trans.
But then suddenly you're a girl and it just clicks. For some it took HRT to find new attraction to guys, I accepted that I might prefer guys before HRT, just from a lot of introspection. It was surreal. Just the fact of redefining sexuality at all. That suddenly I am attracted to someone I thought I was not attracted before.
Still had my doubts for a while. Until I got a boyfriend. And let me tell you, that serene feeling you experience when he holds you... It cannot compare to anything, not even when a girl held me like that. Boys have superpower or something. They melt away your anxiety, make you forget about your problems, and for that single second everything is alright in the world. The first time I experienced that, I finally accepted that I am freakin' straight
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Well, straight-leaning bi girl, with about 80/20 preference towards guys. Still, calling myself straight feels weirdly validating for some reason
