man. I'm becoming super distrustful of all doctors. today the guy that I hoped could help me with an autism diagnosis straight up said to my face "you're not gonna find answers looking to the past, you need to look to the future to overcome your difficulties", which to my mind is his way of saying "I don't believe you". Doctor I just want somebody, anybody in my life to believe me and vague platitudes about overcoming difficulties (being autistic) aren't very fucking helpful.
He said I need to talk to a neuropsychologist and made sure to point out that when talking about autism, autistic people are often nonverbal and that these diagnosis are made during childhood and yes. I know of this, that's why it's called a spectrum. Big sigh.