I can't tell if this is a traumatized child thing but Julia's trained herself not to scream when stubbing her toe or accidentally hitting her arm on a doorframe cause clumsy autistic bitch, but it seems I do that too, the not screaming when in sudden pain thing.
Just hit my shoulder on the doorframe and ouuuugh pain. but no vocalizing it cause idk I think it's a trauma response. so much shit can be attributed to a trauma response, it's wild. at least the pain's over as I've been typing this.